I feel as though I have spent so much time wishing for the next stage...when they were newborns I wanted them to walk and talk, then I was waiting for them to feed themselves, then potty training, getting themselves dressed. Now, now I want time to slow down a little. Yesterday I watched Rylan walk from the house with his friend. His friend was out walking his dog and stopped by to see if Ry could go with him and then it ended up that he went over to his friends house to do homework and have dinner with them. I don't know why but it hit me when I was watching him from the window yesterday, watching him interact with his friend while walking down the sidewalk, seeing him laugh and chat away with his buddy.....I am having to let "go" a little and it is not as easy as I thought it would be.
This week I took my daughter for her first filling ....she had to get the dreaded needle at the dentist and she came out smiling, then later in the week I took her to get her eyebrows waxed (she came to me and said she wanted to have it done)....and the same child that just a few short years ago had to be held down by three people in the back room of the jewelry store to have her other ear pierced...she layed there and while she did flinch I did not have to sit on her lol I don't know when this transition happened but it is here and it feels weird. Tomorrow for the first time Jaden is probably going to go to the mall with some friends and then to a movie and while I am happy for her it still feels bittersweet. It seems as though all of a sudden life is moving so quickly, days are flying by and I want time to slow down, or I would like to freeze time for a little while. I am aware that this is part of the plan, they need to have their independance.....but now that it is slowly happening it is not at all how I thought I would feel. I have learned that every stage is like a new chapter, if I could go back I would enjoy each of those stages more, even the countless sleepless nights...the words *this too shall pass* is so true.
The other night Jackson crept into our room when we went to bed and asked if he could sleep with us for a little while, Shane was ready to carry him back into his own bed..lol..but I pulled back the comforter and told him to climb in, he snuggled into me and I loved every second of it. His brother and sister have shown me how quickly things change and I was not going to give up an opportunity for snuggle time with my baby boy.
I know we have many "stages" left in this parenting journey, I just want to have this to remind myself to stop and enjoy the present, cherish the moments as they come and admire the wonderful people they are becoming.
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